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I DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK

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Well, I already re-introduced myself.... [Jun. 17th, 2006|01:06 pm]
I DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK

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[xneonmoonx]
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...So I figured I'd follow through and post something.

Father's Day is tomorrow. I'm NOT looking foward to it. I am one of the few people I know who doesn't celebrate Father's Day because, well, my father may as well not exist. He moved to Pennsylvania in December because he met some woman on the internet, and now they're married. I have a stepmother and two stepbrothers whom I've never met, and I probably never will meet them. The whole thing left me feeling even more angry and abandoned than I'd felt when he and my mom were divorced in the first place. Yeah, not fun.

Ever since I was 12 years old, Father's Day has been this way. I spend the better part of the day trying to distract myself from it, which is difficult to do when 98% of your friends have made plans with their families and you have to sit there with nothing to do. And everywhere I go, I see families out having a great ol' time and it leaves me feeling like, well, an outsider who has been left out of everything. Last year was pretty bad because ALL of my friends had plans and my mom and my brother didn't feel like doing anything. So it was very difficult for me to keep myself from wallowing all day long.

To this day, though, Father's Day always leaves me feeling depressed.

I'm going cosmic bowling with my boyfriend and two of our friends tomorrow night. But that's not until 9 PM, so I'll have to find something to occupy my mind completely, yet again.

Anyway, that's all for this vent-session. Thanks for listening.
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From: xzcryingveinszx
2006-06-18 12:30 am (UTC)

hmm

well sweetheart, i dont live with my father either coz he need help!
and i wil be living with him this year like in one month, im not so sure how u feel coz i never missed my dad, well i dont think i have a right to say that but darling if ur dad left for a random girl on the net, that means hes an asshole and u dont desirve to be depressed coz of it, u know the real him and stuff so that it good.
listen up, when u look at peeps, u find them happy and all, look at what u ave darling, u have a mother that loves u, a brother, hopefully nuthing too painful happened through ur past..dont look at the shit that u dont have, like that u wont notice it. i never noticed ppl happy with there dads, i never cared coz i know damn well that im better off..u should think like that
sorry darling if i sounded mean.
love ya<3
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[User Picture]From: xneonmoonx
2006-06-18 06:46 am (UTC)

Re: hmm

It didn't sound mean.
It just sounded like you really don't know the whole story.
I'm not depressed on Father's Day for no reason.
There's a lot of other things that have led up to the depression factor.

But yeah... frankly, you really do just sound like another person who doesn't know the whole story.
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From: xzcryingveinszx
2006-06-18 11:27 am (UTC)

Re: hmm

sweetie how am i supose to know the whole story if u didnt write it?
whatever that me or other peeps say, it would be nothing to u coz u didnt write it. goodluck with everything
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[User Picture]From: xneonmoonx
2006-06-18 03:09 pm (UTC)

Re: hmm

My point exactly.
I don't expect you to know anything about it.
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[User Picture]From: xneonmoonx
2006-06-18 06:47 am (UTC)

Re: hmm

PS: There's really no point in telling me how I "should" think because the fact of the matter is, I don't think that way.
It's just the way I am, and the way I feel is justified.
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